Archive | September 2014

From unemployed to semi-employed

I’m on the journey of becoming officially employed. I blogged recently in China about finding the right job, and I have been finding the right one for myself. Well, the answer to that is that I have found the job I am really interested in and I think I will enjoy working in the said company.

I had been in a dilemma ever since I was offered two opportunities when I was back. Both opportunities offered were very enticing and I am genuinely interested in both. I went through 4-5 rounds of interview for company A, and I took a really hard exam to score an interview session for company B. I had to choose, A or B.

Company A offers me the position I like, but the pay for that was mediocre or should I say slightly less than mediocre. Results from company B hasn’t come out yet, and I think the chances of me getting it would be 60%. Cuz I think i kinda screwed the interview up by being too cocky. In fact, I wasn’t in the right mood to deal with the interview because company A has offered me a job. All in all, i thought I could have done better lah. Anyway, I liked both companies. One is US-based, and one is local.

Actually the choice is not very tough, but I brought it upon myself by thinking too much lah. Really. So stupid. So much so that I tied myself to the ground making it very tough for myself to make decision.

It’s very easy to throw out advice to friends and people around you, but when it really happens on your, damn it, you have no idea what to do. Seriously, I caught myself off guard plenty times and I try to really force myself to do what I need to do. When I was faced with monetary problems, I was tempted to go to the one with higher remuneration. Then I ask myself if the monetary could make me happy during my stay in that job. I realize I cannot imagine myself to go to work happy but I could imagine me being really satisfied and accomplished when I thought of the one with lower pay.

I might be thinking too much, company B might not even offer me a job and probably I will just left with one choice–company A. Heh. but opportunities are for those who are well-prepared. So its still good to be mentally prepared for all kind of situations. Hohoho.

Aiya, I think I will just sign the contract for company A lah. Have a job is better than no job, and I shall review this topic of Passion over money after I work lah okay.

Post-college

I came back for a few things and one of it is to attend a seminar held by my professors in college. Because I’m so ridiculous like that, I signed myself up for the seminar. It’s free because I told my professor I want to attend and she said I could attend, but I have to help her during the course.

So i thought it’s just helping out doing some sai-kang work. I forgot I’m talking about china here, my professor made me do so much i felt like I’m one of the organisers. Lol.

What did I bring home from the seminar? Well, I learnt how to maximise my body so I could hang as many goody bags, to come up with weird solutions to questions I don’t even understand just because my prof told me “let them whatever you know about this course. you’ve done that in your senior year! go go go!” Oh. I forgot how I used to slog my life away for my prof when everyone else is writing their thesis.

Aiyoh. I kinda miss the life and couldn’t help but to wonder what’s going to happen to me next. What is my next phase of life?

When I was young, I wanted to grow up so bad. I wanted dress myself up in pretty clothes and high heels. I wanted to be able to take control of my life like an adult.

and now that I’ve reached that certain age where Im old enough to do what I like, and to take control of my life entirely, I felt unsure, and insecure.

Like I want to chicken out from those aspirations that I used to have when I was young. I just want to be provided for and I want live the life like a lil kid with no responsibility. Ah. those carefree moments.

Just let me indulge in my world for a few more days…….